Inside my mind!

I am intense, I speak my mind, I call out people for their bullshit and I have very low tolerance for jerks. I probably have burnt one too many bridges to go back... I'm at a place and time in my life where I have very little patience for people who are flat out jerks. I don't try anymore with them... I don't give chances. In the past few years, I have realized that I don't have to subject myself to these people/experiences anymore. I am mature enough to choose the people I want hanging around me, I get to pick the ones I would like to keep, as well as those I don't want anywhere near me. Don't get me wrong, I am not a ruthless heartless mean being of a person. Quite the contrary really. I have been the kind, caring, patient, giving, empathetic, selfless person that looks after everyone else first and themselves last... for far too long. And I always thought that because I am like that with others, I expected them to behave the same way towards me. How w

What do we seek in life? I can only speak of myself... I seek meaningful connections. Be it with people, with things, with knowledge, with places... Things that mean something, mostly to me. As I am trying to please myself and find happiness within me. Now note that this does not in any way mean that I am selfish, actually far from it. I am merely exploring my own depth and understanding the world around me, and why some things ring a bell inside me while others don't. Have you ever thought about why we have certain likes and dislikes? Why we prefer some things over others? People? Places? I acknowledge the fact that entourage, life events, childhood memories, etc, have some influence on us. But try to strip your mind of all that, disconnect yourself from the outside world and just try to go deep inside yourself... inside your thoughts, desires, ideas, perceptions, scents, sounds, sensations... try to understand yourself. Understand your own needs, your own fulfilment. Wh